Am I a physical or sedentary person

At age 4, I would finally realize if I was that type of person who likes to explore the physical world. I wasn't that type of guy. At an early age I had been cared for and entrusted with love by my parents.  With that being in mind when ever I was outside of school hanging out with my friends at UBC playing games and having fun, I would always feel an emotion that i wasn't at home, not were I was supposed to be.  The feeling wasn't warm or welcoming. My family isn't this way at all, especially my brother. He definitely enjoys the physical world as he hangs out with friends goes to the gym and goes to work. I don't know how he likes the physical world. To me, the outside world is like a mystery. Everything is obscured for me, but at least at my home, I know the environment well and the people living there. I also know where all my belongings are and were they are kept. This gives me a sense of ease and comfort.Unlike my house, the outside world changes everyday: new buildings are made, new people interact with you, and you go to different environments. I have never truly grasp hold of the physical, and when I do enter that world, I just get shocked. With the personality that I have being conscientious and cautious, It adds even more shock and nervousness. I always was that solitary person, never wanted to talk to people or even go out. Instead I was more worried about my room not to have scratches. My mom's way of cleaning up my room was to pile up everything in an unorganized fashion and then with a assertive voice tell me to clean it all up. How was i supposed to clean up the mess? When I saw that there was dents and folds on my pieces of paper from last year and scratches on my equipment, I would get even more angry and frustrated. I would literally sit in my room for about 15minutes thinking about that little scratch on my desk.  This is probably the sole reason why I have not helped out with the renovation going on our house recently. Sometimes my parents can't bring me to our old house and they bring me to the place i dread about. When I enter the house, I go inside with a different mind set. I get frantic seeing everything all over the place and when my family tell me to work, after 10minutes I get very tired and start to sweat. I like a world were it is clean and tidy and that is not too overcrowded.